Friday, October 31, 2008

Power of = s i l e n c e =

Papa Roach says all :


I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed 'cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channeled all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
Your making me insane

Sometimes I just feel like shitting myself out at a corner..

Away from everyone, away from everything...

Why should I care about everything?

I think I cared too much...

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That your drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassion's in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

Squeaking is not the best thing to do..

I'll try to fix everything soon..

But, for the time being, I will be silent.

Friday, October 24, 2008

Please walk into her heart silently~~

Her Structures

When a person approaches you in the street, there are multiple cues that help you to identify that person, such as the face, hairstyle, clothes or walking pattern. If you see a girl, with shoulder length hair, chubby face with normal two eyes, one nose, one mouth features, always dress in a pair of jeans and T-shirts, that is Siu Mei. Remember, it is Siu Mei, not Siew Mei or Su Mei or what other words. Has a height of 163cm, weighs 53kg, is this normal? However, she cannot stand seeing the needle pointing more and more to the right when she stands on the weighing scale. She wears a pair of spectacles too, but she hates wearing them.

Her Details

She is a typical girl born on the 25th of June 1990 into a family of five, consisting dad, mum, big brother, 24 and younger brother, 16. She is given nicknames whenever she meets new friends. Since young, her calling from family is Mei. Other nicknames are such as 'xiao mei mei', which means small girl, and 'sio bee', yes, it is the 'dim sum' everyone loves to eat. Mary? Jamie? All are given by her friends because they think Siu Mei is not an easy name to call. After moving from Bintulu to Kuching, her whole family live under the same roof in Taman Hwata to date.

Her Strengths

Her friends say she is creative and easy-going, helpful and friendly. She is also musically able. Based on her research on this topic, she got few answers from her friends about her good qualities. She is nice, she is humble, she is funny. ‘They’ also say that she is nice to be bullied.

Her Weaknesses

Unable to face the eyes focusing on her when she stands in front of the crowd presenting her speech or even when she performs piano. She will get very nervous and go all blank and then ruin everything. Some people says she is very naive and always have an innocent look when she is blur. She is lazy to do her work especially house chores. Her bad habit is that she complains a lot. Finally, she doesn’t know how to use words in her conversations, which sometimes make her sounds stupid.

Facts about her

Her favorite quote is “Music expresses that which cannot be put into words and that which cannot remain silent” – by Victor Hugo. Favorite colour, purple. She loves to make herself as busy as she can, and scares to be left alone. She owns a blog where everyone can read about her life and what she is on currently. It is also a site where she expresses her feelings. She has many other accounts such as Facebook, Friendster, Myspace, but none of those are as active since she started her Uni life in Swinburne. She hates to be controlled.

Her life now

People say music is their passion, music is their lives. To her, it is music that helps her to express her feelings, and the quote by Victor Hugo is the best reason to her love in music. She started dancing her little fingers on the keyboard of piano since the age of 6, and now, she’s currently pursuing Classical piano playing in Diploma level, at a music school called International Music House, IMH. In the same school, she takes up viola lessons with a Russian teacher who is very kind and always give advice and encourages her to pursue her interest in music playing while doing her studies. Guitar is her third instrument, but, to tell the truth, she is very impatient in learning guitar, that is why she’s going no where with it. She’s doing another course which is Diploma in Music teaching under Thames Valley University and IMH. Her course in Swinburne is Foundation in Engineering and Science, and will be pursuing her degree in Biotechnology. She loves to perform in an orchestra, that is why she joins the Sarawak Symphonic Orchestra, and goes for practices every week. Imagine how busy is her life, that’s what she likes.

Her Secrets

She is quite a shy person to strangers, but when she gets to know someone for a longer time, she can be too close to him or her. She will run out of the loo if there’s a cockroach she spot at the corner, even if she’s naked. That happens when no one is around the house, or else she will just scream until the whole neighborhood gets to hear it.

Her greatest phobia of all is to imagine too much about something. For example, when she walks alone in a dark, empty, huge place, she will start to imagine things, like those in the movies. Maybe it is because she watched too much of those horror movies. You can say she is timid, because she is afraid of anything that moves. Is this weird?

This is H E R

She is the type who sees others more important than herself. She shares and she keeps. She complains a lot to those who are willing to listen. She hopes someone can understand better about what she wants without her saying anything about it. She wishes her studies to get better without other factors affecting her. She hopes to produce better music. She really really hopes that those ‘people’ can stop doing hurting actions towards her and leave impacts in her life. She hopes for more mature mind in handling situations in life. She wants to help others without.......Finally, she wishes to read humans’ minds and help all of them in needs=)

To you,

Hold on, and be strong
God bless the child that can hold his own

Friday, October 17, 2008

Thank God

Many things had happened within this week...

Read Dry Daddy and Mummy's latest post-> What had happened to Cla..

Ok, I felt terrible, not worried or scared type of terrible, but feeling, I felt like vomiting and fainting when I was in the lift. I understand now why am I feeling sicker than my other friends. Shh, secret here. hehehe, it's not like what Dry daddy said in his post, lolx!!

I just had a Quiz for IT subject. It's my habit to not to remember my password for an account, problem came to me!!! Woahh, I was damn nervous. We had to send in our work within the given time, via E-MAIL, taddaaaa...I guess you all know what happened to me...sobssssss~~

Hhmmm...if I were to join the upcoming performance, can I cope with it? Finals' are just at the tip of my nose. Heeelllllpppp........~~

Friday, October 10, 2008


I wrote this for English Article Writing, please read and comment=)

The fact: Guys want to know what girls want, while girls want to know what guys want.

Let’s imagine this: You’re a girl at a party and are talking to a guy who is very good looking and, even though you don’t really know him yet, you’re interested in him. You flirt, but he acts uninterested. You ask him out for a drink, but he flat out rejects you. That’s not the end yet, you find out where he works or lives, and turn up there the next day with flowers. He asks you to leave him alone. Again, you ignore him. You start sending him expensive gifts, which he returns. You turn up at a social situation and declare that you love him, and that you are perfect for each other and he should stop denying his feelings, you’re not going to give up until he admits he loves you.

Now, imagine the same situation, but, you’re a guy at a party and are talking to a girl who is very beautiful, continues on……

Which situation is more logic in your sense?

Why it is that ‘he’ must be the one to pursue ‘her’; ‘he’ must ask ‘her’ out; ‘he’ must be the one to call ‘her’?

Guy pursues girl, girl accepts, and finally they live happily ever after. Very cute, and how romantic of the guy to have such determined heart to get the girl. Now, imagine if it happened to you. You’re the girl, you’d probably got irritated by this weirdo disturbing and keeps on stalking you. At most, you’ll be terrified, scared to answer his call, or avoid him when he walks near you. Stalking is a punishable crime. So why is it seen as OK, as good, even when guys use these methods to stalk girls? And the girls find this attractive?

The answer to this question is girls love stalkers.

What are other requirements from a girl? A girl wants a guy. A wealthy guy, a successful guy, a famous guy, an interesting guy, a macho, a talented guy, a loving guy, a guy she loves, a father for her children, a friend, a sex-machine and a guy that is above her head in everything she does. These details may differ, but the main point stays the same. SHE WANTS A GUY. Some girls want just money or a career, but if she denies her compliance to meet a real guy, she lies. Moreover, girl’s demands to what she calls a good guy vary as she gets older.

A girl of 20 wants a prince on white horse. He must be handsome, famous, humor and even smart. A 30 year-old girl wants just a guy. He needs to have good manners, a well-paid job and a good car and is able to remember her family members’ birth date. A girl in her 40s wants a guy who at least has some athletic mind to do house chores for her. A girl of 50 wants just that guy, who remembers her name, shaves during the weekends and behaves himself in the public. A girl in her 60s wants her man to not to disturb her too often. What does a girl of 70 wants? Well, some ‘girls’ do live that long, what about ‘him’? Are you sure he’s still breathing? If yes, he is the real treasure for the tired ‘her’.

So, we are clear with what girls want from guys. Now, let’s see what guys want from girls. First of all, a guy likes to love and likes being loved in return. They try to seek for their Miss Right no matter how many girls they ‘try’. Attractive girls are their targets, but, do not be so shallow girls. Guys do not want a girl who weighs 80lbs, they do want a girl who takes pride in their appearance.

Girls, guys are looking for a trustworthy girl, someone who they can have faith in and someone who will be there for them. They can never forgive a girl being unfaithful. Be feminine, be gentle, and be kind. Because deep down in guys’ hearts, these qualities make a girl attractive.

Guys also like girls who have high sense of humor. She must be able to fit in with his friends, be sociable and fun to be with. Such girls are extremely attractive to guys. When he wants to relax, she must be able to do so with him.

She must also be supportive. Many girls often criticize guys on their behavior, career and try to mould them into something they wish the guys would be. This is a crucial mistake. The best relationship works both ways in terms of support. Where a girl is not able to give that support and is always criticizing, she may lose her man.

Another must-know-fact about guys is that they do not like angry girls who shout. They want girls who can debate and are able to discuss. Communication is king. They love challenging girls too. Once guys feel secure in a relationship, they feel lazy, and the relationship may get duller from days to days. If you want to keep your man interested, keep him challenged.

Finally, guys do not want to be alone.

Guys and girls, enjoy these tips, hope you find it interesting.

Saturday, October 4, 2008

Ti Amo


It's Hari Raya on the 1st October..

Spent the noon with fishy and rabbit, and we had lunch at Sugarbun, eeewwww!!

Went to Permai beach after that=)

That was my first time playing in the rain, and it's on the beach, I was wild enough..

It has been years since I visited a beach, I miss Bintulu...

I had fun, I felt awesome, I want to do that again=)

Enjoy the photos below

Black and white again?

Red enough? My beloved 'dry' parents ok? :P

Owhhh... Blueiy, haah

That's what I've been doing for the two-days holiday..

Eat, play, eat, play, sleep....

Have you ever eaten such a red and nice watermelon?

It's made of agar-agar, damn sweet, never ever try it anymore...

~3rd Oct~
Friday was a fine day, Friday was a bad day..

Again, I did something 'bad'...

Anyway, I spent my day with few friends after morning class..

My lunch, I put up this pic because I feel it's nice, the pic is nice, the food is NOT, haha, makes you hungry? That's what I intended to do=P

I learned to row the boat, row row row your boat...@_@
It's called sampan..
It needs skills and according to my 'sifu', I was so so a PASS student.

Went over stream to visit this place..
We climbed the untraceable tracks..Got bitten by mosquitoes..
Took these photos..
Paid RM40..
Learned how to row a 'sampan'..

See, lei yeng ge siong gam lousy geh, ngo bong lei yeng jor gam leng geh bakground, ngo geh bakground mm zhi hai meh lei ga...lauya ah lei!! gong xiu zha!!

ngo you gam geh bakground mah=P

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